Before and After Pics

Below are the BEFORE and AFTER pictures of the 10 weeks of physical health experience.

I only have the brown tinted ones of the before pics, but you can still see the differences!

WOW! I am amazed! It really keeps me motivated to keep this up!
The Before pics were taken October 5th.
The After pics were taken December 15th.

Its almost hilarious how big the difference is!

I'm in awe!

I must admit . . . I am a little grossed out my the before pics. Look at my b'donk-a-donk! in the before pic and my back fat - wow, there is less now.

I feel SOOOO healthy now compared to October 5th. I can just remember feeling so unhealthy. I still feel like I have a lot of work to do with staying healthy, and trimming off a little more --- but I am so excited about how I feel.

I am also so excited about the emotional, mental, and spiritual breakthoughs and experiences I had!!! -- and of course am continually having!!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE THANK ALL!!!!

10 weeks of Physical Health: Days 70

Wow! The 10 weeks are complete and I truly feel like I have really learned a lot about what my body and soul need!

I have the pictures ready -- I will post them soon - things are super busy! Also I will talk more about my experience!

Thanks for all the support and fun participations!

10 weeks of physical health: Day 63

Well!!! I have 7 days left of these wonderful 10 weeks!!!

Wow! Time flies!!!

I feel like I have done well -- I kept getting distracted and didn't blog when I wanted to, and we went out late Thursday night and had some delicious appetizers and I did have two BIG sugar cookies on Friday! OH MAN! They were delicious - but of course I really could've had a 1/2 a cookie and been fine. What-ev's! So I have been eating pretty healthy other than that!

I am worried about this weekend . . . we are lucky enough to go to Disneyland this weekend and it has been REALLY hard for me, in the past, to eat healthy on vacation - especially in DL, because of all the delicious smells and food/treat stands and ice cream on Main Street and Corn Dog Castle in California Adventure Park! Well - I will really do my best - I am going to have one of those Corn Dogs, maybe I will share one with Scott instead of having a whole one. I know . . . you may be saying, "Corn Dogs? What? . . . YUCK". . . but let me tell you . . . these ones are delicious! They are huge and freshly dipped in batter and fried! I know . . . SO fattening and greasy, but that is the one thing I will never eat anywhere else, so it is my endulgence. I really have to plan this out, or I will CRACK and have treats galore!!! OKAY - I can do this! I only have 7 days left - I have to be strong and finish with a BANG! (I have to think of the difference I want to see in the final "after" picture :) )

Anyway --- I have been really having a blast working out lately - I feel so healthy and my strength and endurance is getting better! (That is what is reality for me - my health, and physical ability!) I find myself really looking forward to my morning workouts, when I used to dread them sometimes. SO that is pretty cool for me!!! Although I feel sometimes my workouts are all for not if I don't eat healthy --- but I have come to realize that is not true! My workouts have kept me staying healthier during those stretches of unhealthy eating, and pigouts. My workouts have kept my body remembering what my goals are! It is great! So my advise for anyone --- keep working out, even if you have stretches of unhealthy eating!

Have a wonderul, heal-thy day! Love love love!!!

Todays GOAL: Do at least ONE thing today that brings you true JOY!!!

10 weeks of physical health: Day ?

Who knows how far into this I am!!! I know that it ends December 15th -- I am going to try and keep it going through Christmas and New Years -- Because that is where all the unhealthy treats show off their good side!

So, did pretty good over Thanksgiving! How did y'all do? However, my munchy, treat-eating seems to come at random times!!! . . . emotional times.

I tell you what -- this has not only been a physical experience, but quite an emotional ride as well! I have always said in my posts that it has to do with emotional health too!!!
SO I had a major emotional breakthough!!! It was huge for me - had no idea it was there-- And I know this has been at the core of my self-image beliefs!!! --- man o man! Ya put it out there and ways of change and cleansing just flo into your life! Its amazing!


So a couple times a month I get to have great chats with my friend after we work with the kids at The Sharing Place. Life issues are always discussed and this last Monday - he helped bring up a subject I have NEVER looked at or even thought was an issue . . .

So as we all grow up - most of us can look back and know that there are deep emotional issues that have to do with one or both of our parents. Some have many issues and a some have a few, but we all have them.

Now I have always known that many (not all) of my issues stem from my interpretations of my dad and growing up with him, and his style of how he raised us kids, etc. Now I have always looked up to my dad and have held him on quite a tall pedi-stole whenever I think of him or talk about him. However, my friend brought up the subject about how I TRULY feel about my dad -- it was a very interesting discovery!!! So after this Monday discussion with my friend - Tuesday was awful as I worked through some stuff - of course with the help of my amazing husband!!! (If anyone wants to know what the details of the discussion and processing was, I would love to tell you about it in person - too hard to explain on a blog post) so . . . here is the breakthough I had . . . (Please pardon the cuss words - its part of the feeling of the breakthough)

---I am my own damn person, I have everything about myself to be proud of, and I have my own damn life, and who am I to allow anyone elses opinions, or my interpretations of there opinions make a difference in how I view myself or live my life! I am me and I am DAMN proud to be me!!!---

It was (and is) so powerful! I was able to really let go of a lot of stuff I have been holding on to that I have NO NEED for! I'm done with it! Its not a part of me and I have no need to choose it! But I had to view things from a new angle before I could SEE the reality of it and let it go!!!

I feel amazing right now! I am still processing some things with it, and it is great to be purging this stuff out of me!!! What I am working on now - is living in this new reality, and finding what is me, and also NEW!

YES! I love being me!!!


So there ya have it!
LOVE LOVE LOVE! Thank you for all your love and support with this blog and with everything! May love shine in your lives always - and may your trueselves be found!

10 weeks of physical health: Day 50

***** avoid the temptation -- PLEASE read before you look at the pictures! :) :) :)

Okay so I have just zoomed through day 38 - 49! :) Talk about the craziest, most awesome two and a half weeks!!!

SO after I published that last post of Day 37 -- I got my sh*@ together! I had to just release my frustrations about how difficult being healthy can be -- especially during emotional times!!!!

Well - I have GOT IT TOGETHER for the past two weeks and have felt VERY good with my eating and exercising routine and habits!!!

I wrote a VERY long comment on my last post, in response to my aunt's comment - who I saw this weekend, which was very fun! I wish everyone could read it - because she expressed some very valid fears and concerns that I have also had and am sure many people have had and may still have! I responded to her concerns from the experience of my last two weeks or so. I talked about staying in a upward spiral and keeping your progress steady and moving upward, whether it may be slow or fast, it is still moving upward or steady --- but please don't give up, or KEEP pigging out or COMPLETELY stopping exercise, because this puts us in a downward spiral. Keep it steady and upward!!

Physical progress finally posted . . . (Emotional progress can't really be charted, but it is amazing and off the charts so far :))
SO --- I decided to post my progress pictures! How embarrassing -- but this is still something I have to overcome!

There is a little difference between the two pictures! Its kinda cool to see that!

Inches lost thus far:
I've lost 3 1/4th inches on my waist, 3 inches on my upper hips, 1 1/2 inches on lower hips, 1/4th inch on each arm, 2 inches on each leg. -- and my boobs are getting smaller -- hmmm - thats a bummer ;) (WOW! That adds up to 10 1/4th total inches so far! Wow, wierd! Ha ha ha ha! -that sounds like those stupid info-mercials that get you to buy the diet and workout products. Ha ha ha ha! Funny! :) )

Well, I have 20 more days!!! I will post the final picture on December 15th or 16th! Wooo! Hoooo!

Day 1

Day 50

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day 50
The only thing I can think of with the side photos is that I look a little tighter, more tone --- other wise from the pictures there's not much difference. Although - with how my clothes fit there is a difference. :)

COOL! It is a lot easier for me to want to keep this up when I SEE the progress! GO! FIGHT! WIN! Baby!

If anyone decides to be more committed to living healthier, take before pics, its NOT fun at first, but now that I can take a pic where I SEE a difference - its a lot more fun!!!

Have a Heal-thy day! Love love love!!!

10 weeks of physical health: Day 37

Okay! Seriously! Am I incapable of continually eating healthy? Do I have a disability? (I don't mean disrespect, I am really asking myself this!) Do I have a flaw in my brain? Do I have issues with being truly healthy?

So - I just have NOT been able to do this 100%! WHAT THE HELL?!!! I am very frustrated with myself. Am I doing something wrong? I just can't get it together for longer than about 3 to 10 days at a time, and then I PIG OUT on unhealthy junk!!!

I have really tried to stay positive and just start again the next day - but I am now facing some demon inside of me saying "Neener neener neener! You caaan't dooo it!! Ha Ha!" -----AAAAHHH! I am just angry now!

I did SO great the last few days-- up until this afternoon when I just kept eating and didn't stop! AAAHHHH!

I feel like I am in a true FIGHT with myself --- with my damn self-defeating habits!!!! AAAHHH! Is this part of it? Is this part of the journey of overcoming years of icky, depressive, struggles with eating junk and over-eating --- with never rising above a certain line -- a specific level -- never actually passing that point that if I knew I did it I could keep going?

I WILL WIN THIS BATTLE! I WILL FIGHT THE FIGHT 'TIL I HAVE WON!!! AAAAAHHHH!!!!!! YES! YES! YES!

10 weeks of physical health: Days 35 & 36

I have been so tempted with delicious things the past couple days- but I have not CAVED to the temptations! Hurray!

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SO I know I said that yesterday I would post more about the question What do you want?

Well, you know how life gets busy - yes - such is how it has been yesterday and today!

So here I finally continue on this subject:

I have a very long story about making what I want a reality, but I feel that may be for a later time, or on a personal one on one chat with those who may ask me in person. So here is the shorter story . . .

SO a few months ago I really began to focus on what I TRULY want. I knew that I did not have time or the reality to meditate for 20 min. a day on this subject . . . so I decided my thoughts about this would need to happen and continue as I did my daily activities. This thought was always on my mind --- I have, in the last year(but especially the last 2-3 months) really wanted to figure out what I want to do in my life and I wanted it to be something that brought me joy everyday, and something that I had control over. (I'm sick of workin' for the "Man")

Each day I would have thoughts continually in my mind, asking my inner self, my true self, "I want to know what I truly want! What will fulfill this desire in my heart?" So then as I went about my day I would repeat the phrase, "Be still and know!" Because I knew that if I could quiet my innerself as I went about my day I truly would KNOW what I wanted and what would bring me my joy! I wanted something that I would get excited and gitty about everyday! I knew it was there!

So thus below is the result of pondering and asking for guidance from within - what will bring me that true joy from the depths of my heart, that would allow me to generate that energy from me of joy, peace, and love to others! This is it . . . the beginnings of it and it is continually growing! This came from my true self, my inner self and everyday, endless things are being presented in my life to move forward with this passion! I am so grateful! I love it!

My Bakery . . . Ar Mel's!

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The bread's in the picture are all one's I have created in promotion for Ar Mel's! IT HAS BEEN SO FUN! I AM LOVING IT!

Love love love! Have a heal-thy day!